My sick little monkey

After I downloded this video he wanted to watch it over and over and over and over again. My true two year old toddler at his finest.

Christmas time at disneyland

We went to Disneyland on Sunday with my inlaws. It was such a nice day. Cool. Not really crowded. It was Christmas-ie and fun. I tell you the only way to go to Dland is in a wheelchair. I wonder how many people are faken it just to walk on to rides. Janice (john's mom) had to be in a wheelchair due to a recent foot surgery. We did walk on to rides. We went on the finding nemo ride. I give it 3 star out of 5. First star will be for the great nemo music while you wait and while you are under. The second star I will give for the fun seating arrangements. Lastly my second star will go for the great water proof sealant they used so we all didn't die. The voices are so lame because they are not the "real ones". I mean Dory is Ellen DenGeneres. You can't fake her. So that was cheesey. It's weird, I didn't know what to expect. The images are like of a holographic or something. It's all computerized. We also saw the christmas parade too. We waited for an hour to get a good spot and people come all up on you to mooch in on your territory. I stopped them. One guy said to me, "Where's you F*%$#@! Christmas spirit!" I told him it was in my heart, not on this corner where I have been for an hour. I also told him to watch his language around all these small children. I would have never stuck up for myself a couple of years ago. If that same guy would have done that to me earlier, I would have let him in on my corner. And maybe I should have anyway...nah.

The days after Thanksgiving...

So we went to my moms on Saturday for a little more turkey and stuffing. We also played this fun guitar game. Everyone gave it a try including tyler. But of course he didn't want to share. What is it with kids not wanting to share? Or is it just mine? We ferel like we are the only ones out there with a toddler right now that is "Two"...I believe the stage terrible twos...and now I have to endure another child go through it. Oh boy oh boy.

**check out everyone's faces playing the guitars, so into it don't you think?

Day out with Thomas

So last saturday we took tyler (and gavin) to go see Thomas the train in Perris. He had a lot of fun. Now everytime he sees a train he calls out for Thomas. When we were on the train ride he couldn't stop waving to everyone, so cute. He also got to meet Bob the Builder. Of course, like always, he doesn't like to stand by the character and get his picture taken. He likes to walk around and talk at it. Oh well. I don't know how many times I heard, "I want to see Thomas!" all throughout the park. Not just from Tyler but the other hundreds of toddlers running amuck. And when we were all leaving, the same children (including mine) were crying saying, you guesses it, "I want to see Thomas!"

Thanksgiving Day...

So on turkey Day we spent it with my in-laws this year. I made my pumpkin soup as usual and helped with the ordinary green bean casserole that you can find on any can of those fried onions. It was nice and relaxing. Tyler and Gavin's Great gma and gpa Cram got to spend it with us. We ate around 1pm so at 6pm we had another round of turkey. It's hard to believe that Thanksgiving is already over and Christmas is just about here. I kinda dread the whole decoration thing right now. I think I will just get a tree and that's about it. I am even considering buying a small 4 footer and putting it on a table. Just not in the mood I guess.

Anyway, here are some pictures...

Being real.

This post doesn't need a picture. This post is somewhat different from last posts. I'm depressed. I'm suffering from depression. I actually am wide awake at 12:30am wondering why I am blogging about this, but I feel like I need to talk. John is sleeping right now and he can't listen. Everyone is sleeping right now so I can't call. To be depressed is to feel sunken. I actually found a word to help me describe it. To feel sunken is to feel like you are below everything, trying to stay above it all. Not all my days are like this. Actually most of them are of the norm. But when this depression is triggered by whatever-it sucks. I thought I was doing better the last week. I actually have had something to look forward to every weekend. 2 weeks ago was a birthday party for tyler to go to, this past saturday was thomas the train event, and now there is thanksgiving coming up and then disneyland on sunday. People may look at me and think I should be the most happiest person living. I should be exstatic, I have a newborn, I have a great 2 year old and a wonderful husband that love me. But, I am happy. I am also overwhelmed with emotions, feelings of worthlessness, angry, sad, guilty that I am depressed. So sunken is how I feel. Below. Deflated. So I will try to go to bed...again. I'm hopeful for tomorrow to be a better day. I also hope I don't regret posting this. If you know me, I just ask for you to pray for me. Pray that this cloud will be lifted off me. I want to enjoy my new life that has been given to me 2 months ago. I want to enjoy my family. I need it.

Halloween firsts...

So yesterday we went out to The Grove to go "trunk or treating". It was Tyler's first Halloween actually dressing up and going out. Technically it was his 3rd...but this is the one that counted. He was batman this year, or as Tyler says it, "Supaman". He's a little confused but oh well. He points to the batman outfit in target and says, "supaman" and I correct him and say, "no that's batman, this is superman (point to the outfit)?" He right away tells me no. So whatever. He likes the way batman looks, but likes the sound of superman...oh I mean "supaman". Anyway here are a few pictures...hahaha I said a few!

Gavin was a cow dressed up as a pumpkin! He didn't like it much...

Here's "batman" eating a hotdog with ketchup and mustard...
Here's "batman" eating potato chips...
Here's our little pumpkin sleeping thru it all...
Here I am showing and telling Tyler how to ask for candy...

Of course he picked it up real good and fast. He never even said trick or treat, he would just lift his basket up! Even sometimes he would just walk by if someone was in his way or not fast enough...patience son...who am I kidding, he's 2.
Sometimes he would just stare at the peoples decorations and the costumes.
This is tyler doing it by himself. Looks like he is getting assurance from us like if he's doing it okay or right. You did right tyler, you made out big. Now daddy and I have to "inspect" your candy and "throw" out any bad candy...